Andres Linetsky Y Ernesto Romeo

I am listening to this song again.
I fell in love with it upon the first hearing.
And I am still in love with it.

I know...I am always the "love at first sight" kinda person.That's why if I fancied something I saw on the streets,I usually wont hesistate to get it or hold for it..but eventually will still get it.

Of course there are circumstances whereby I realise I dont like it as much upon the next sight.
But those times are rare.

Things that I grow to like are important and likeable as well.But to me,the amount of "love" I have as compare to the "love at first sight" are differ by a few notches.
You cant force me to balance them and stuff.

They are just different.
For the one I love at first sight is always special,while the one I grow to love is precious.

Which is more significant to you?
'Precious' or 'Special'?

I guess that isnt a very fair question to anyone.
It is hard to choose.
Why cant they be one?I mean why cant they be both special and precious?Isnt the thing precious coz it is special?

I wish...
God dont give perfect gifts forever.

Ok..I am diverting.
Maybe I am just using that to relate something I always wanted to question anyone and myself.

Let me put it this way:

If one day while you are shopping...
Ok...imagine you are shopping for whatever you love.
For Jason..it may be goal keepers' gloves.
For Yng..it may be exotic cuts jewels.

There are 2 very outstanding designs.

One is something you always wanted.
It may not be necessarily appealing to every single souls..but it is just you!
You love it.

But right besides it is another one of a kind.
Say it is the limited edition of this century and few are left in the market now.
And only one is left right before your eye.
You know you would be proud to own it.

Hey...You cant take both.You are only allow to buy one home and you must know that there may not be another similar ones outside...


It is once in a lifetime deal.

Think...think hard!

Which would you take home?
Hard deal,huh?

I dun wanna deny.If I ever have the chance,I would take the former.

You should know what I am saying right now.
You know me.

I wouldnt say that there is any changes for me,or I am not being truthful in my words to you.

Ok..
Look at me.
Listen to me.

You know who I am,how I think,how I feel from the start.
I tied alot of knots inside and they dont untangle easily.

I am always...maybe for all that I can,trying to offer the whole of me to you.
I am gratefully insipired by all the fairytales in real life and always wanted to be like them and create my own fairy tale with you.
Be One and Only One.

It is just that sometimes...I am displeased with the same old issue that I always bring up to you.

I dont mean you didnt even listen to me or show it to me.Infact you did.
But somehow..somewhere...eventually...it still slip back to that same old square.

See...I need alot of fire to back up this relationship.
I need the passion to keep me in bond with you.
You dont just sit back and ignore things like that.

While we have our own spaces,fair and square...it doesnt mean that our relationship turned to a rountine...a shriveling white rose.

Ok..
You know what the thing I can trying to conceal always?

You know...I believe that when one is completely in love,he turns blind.
Samewise for all the lovefools on earth...including me.

If a guy like Albert in the show Hitch can gets me solely in love with him,I wouldnt mind if he is like so much shorter than me,fatter and sometimes just klutzy.

Similarly...There are times...I am so in love with you..I can really just see a Prince Charming infront of me.You totally just shine and keeps my eyes twinkling whenever I see you.

But whatever...
Tell me...how come there are times I still dont see that.
When I dont see that...I see all the differences and things I wont accept for my kinda guy.
Then I turned difficult and mean.And I know...you dont like me too.

But really this happened coz I dont feel too in love.
I only feel that we are just two people walking out there,holding hands and walk just becoz we have been doing this for the past 20 mths.

Kissing is not a pleasant or natural step to follow anymore.

While I know this is not right of me,I try to stop myself.
I closed my eyes,shut my thoughts and tell myself how wonderful this is gonna be.

I smiled,I cheered...but it wont last.It makes me zapped out by the end of the day.
It's like I am the only one trying to be,to re live..

I know at the end of all these...You are gonna make me convinced again that it is still me doing my own tricks eventually.

Ya...why did I bother to perform my own tricks and make things difficult for myself?

Then..too..I miss that special thing.Though nothing ever happen before.Though I never even own it before...Though I wish I never set my eyes on it before.
But it was a curse.
Coz before I know I had to let go of everything,I said...I will always pray for it and it shall always be special.

But while I have my precious you,I dont wanna be doing this you know.
I dont wanna be slained with the name of infidel one.
I can see that you are true and will be so as long as you love me...I wanna be so to you too...
Then...
Stop making me not to.

While I am here,doing my best.
I wouldnt want you to be skiving one corner..thinking we will always be ok.

Like most gals,I need romance,TLC,attention and feel like a princess sometimes..

Dont try to reason with me.
I have no room in my head to decide that I am just being unreasonable again.

I am still thinking about other things.

I dont wanna hear that I am wrong about this.
While there is no right or wrong...there are only self defences and proclaimations of your own stands,like me

I am just weary huh.

Ironically....When they always say...couples must communicate..And I affirm that theory.

I am just not good at speaking.

Blogs...are a one way track.

Night.

-_____-"""
My line of one of the big fish snapped.
She dumped me without knowing.
Sigh..that kinda disappointment is so cold...
Anyway!!
Like that la.


My nails are chipping.Weak nails.-_-#

Sometimes I really wish Jason would do something for a change.
Like really call me for a chat,ask me out for date.
It 's like asking me for dinner,and not just wait for those 'usual' days then can go out.

Very sian le...

I dun wanna call you tonight la.

You go eat your cold dinner ba.

BLEAH!!!
#_#!

Thursday morning~

On my way to work,I thought of what should I do with my own future.
I couldnt and shouldnt just sit and wait.It will be as good as being a useless slob.

I know where my problems are.

Personally I do not have that real confidence.
I mean I can easily put up a good front with enough practice.
But when it comes to really putting my own hands to work,I lack of that same confidence and hence the drive and motivation.

Secondly I do not have a strong,determined clear vision of what's ahead,perhaps like most people.
Or at least I do not know what I should and really wanna be doing.
This is a real hindrance.

Thirdly I am lacking of self motivation and drive.That I think comes from the first pt I mentioned.

I know to get ahead,I gotta self psycho myself to get rid of all that.

I dun wanna sit and wait for NIE,and then decide.

I should really start thinking and planning for now.

=<

Did I mention Bert is off to HK for the rest of this week?
Think I did.
So it is back to those ever relax mode~

I usually pretend to work when he's here,which I think is very unconvincing anyway.
Haha.

Gg to meet a customer later.Hope this case closed.
Coz i desperately need some new cases under my name.

Had a very sinful breakfast this morning.
Had peanut butter cheese bread.
Went to office,realise company got buy breakfast this morning.
Drank a cup of milo,eat a piece of prata(!!!!!!),a siew mai,a piece of fried carrot cake.
-_-#
It's no wonder that my tummy is always bulging out.

This Fri,I am meeting Von,Yin and Irene for a private gathering.
Time for some catching up.

The office is kinda quiet now.
Well...at least it is relaxing.

=)

Yng complained about my blog.
Haha.
Too hard to read la.Complicated design la.Boring stuff la.
Aiyo gal....

But I dig this design though.
I chose this becoz that fade in,fade out design.Exactly what you dislike. =p

About why I always write about Jade la..Fishes la...Bert la...
Well..These are the pple/things that revolves day in,day out of my life ma.

In a blog,you always write what happened that eventful day.Sometimes your personal thoughts,shout outs etc.

What else to write?
Haha.

Ok la,I admit my blog is boring.=/
Nothing much interesting lah~

Anyway....

I think it's that time again.
I should sit down and seriously plan my route ahead.

The thing with me is that...
I do not have very strong determination and preseverance to carry myself through the days.

Ya,I admit I am very lazy.

I must change this aspect.
I must have a plan,a goal ahead.

I must do something...now.

Feeling extremely ZzzZzzZzz now.

Seriously need to cut down on what I am feeding myself with.
When I took photos with Jason last Sat,I notice how much rounder my face has become.(not to mention my popping out tummy!!!!)

WHA~~~My nightmares come true!!
The perils of office life.

-__-"

My eyes very pain...like the contacts are cutting in.
ouch ouch ouch ouch~

Think I just go for a light trim of hair after work.
it's getting a lil hay wired.
Just trim to maintain,no affecting of length.


SO tired~~~~
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz

This is basically a very nonsensical blog.

Ignore me.

Good news~
Bert wont be back for the rest of the day.
^^
And then tml ah jie(Jade) is gonna fixed an "appt" so we can leave at 3pm.
Wha lao..so lucky eh.And we leave from there.
I love Jade!!!!

Wonder what to do after that.

Today is my typical Monday blues.
So sleepy and my eyes ain't opening yet.
Everyone's eyes(ok not every one) are kinda swelling.
Thank god that mine is just not opening,not swelling.

Last night's blog was gone.
Posting error,as usual.
Anyway nothing much...just talking about my ruined Easter egg given by Jason last year,and now I am keeping it in a container rather than exposing it.
Sob.
Yesterday was Easter Day btw..

Absolutely cant wait for Wednesday to come.
Bert is gg to HK and that leaves us with liberty till the end of this week.
Why cant he kick start from today?

Just pray that this 2 days would be fast and quick.

I wanna watch 'Heffalump'.
Shuyi said it's funny.

I've never watch any Pooh's cartoons since young.
So if i am gonna catch this,it's gonna be my very first.^^

gtg!!!1

I guessed both you and I forgot that today is Easter.
On the 3rd day.

That Easter egg you made for me last year is kinda ruined.
Much to my regret and apologies.
My clusmy self.
I am now keeping it in a container.

I must have been watching too much Shaman King.
Now I thought I am hearing the people (frm TV) speaking jap from my room.
-_-"

That's why sometimes I tried to refrain myself from animes and/or mangas...(um...is that how it's spelt?)

Coz either I am not interested at all or I am a sick addict.

Duh...

Feel my fats~~~

Read carefully:

"Is nothing I send worth keeping anymore?Or is the past more worthy to be kept?"

"If nothing from you is worth keeping,last time's msg wouldnt be in my inbox,including those in my 8310..and that is the only reason i havent trade it in or something all the while."

If you read again and think twice,your answer is exactly my question...only.

Don't agree?
Key words:

"Is nothing I send worth keeping anymore?Or is the past more worthy to be kept?"

"If nothing from you is worth keeping,last time's msg wouldnt be in my inbox,including those in my 8310..and that is the only reason i havent trade it in or something all the while."

When is that last time to be exact?

Sigh...

Anyway this is not really my point...Maybe partially.

Did God really made us in halves right from the start?
Are we suppose to find the other half?
Can that other half truely understand and fill you up?

There are some people who can never find it.
There are some who refuse to find.
There are some who keep looking for it.
And there are some who just relent and make do with what they found.

Me...I just wanna keep finding it but I dunno where is it.
Is it really you?

Sometimes..such questions in life are indeed too philosophiscated ( if there is such word?) to be understood.

Sadness is a solitaire emotion.
You can share your happiness but never sadness is share,unlessthe same kind of sadness hits you as well.

For instance if someone you know or dunno been through something tragical,you can only feel for him yet cant share his sadness.

Do not object coz you know this is true.

This leads to me to think...Can two people really share the mind connection?Can telepathy be so strong that you can instantly feel the person is happy or sad,no matter how the distance.

Do you think so?

I think you may have read this before,perhaps in email.

That a man wakes up finding his dear wife already dead besides him.

That was the same body whom he kissed good night just perhaps 8 hours back.

"She must have been through a strong stuggle with Hades before she left...yet he dunno."

If people really have those kinda spiritual telepathy between them,there wouldnt be so many regrets and sadness.

You can feel that guy's sadness,cant you?
But he is really the only one that feels the raw pain.
Solitary sadness.

Same thing...

I was there tearing...yet he sleeps soundly besides me.
I doubt he knows it.
I dont think so.
At the end of the day,I still dun think so.

If he knew,I would have feel it in his hugs.
The messages I sent was undelivered.
And the messages he sent was wrong.

If you were to ask,why am I sad,what was I upset about?

Sometimes...sadness doesnt really require any reason.
Like most things in life.

Sometimes when it hits you,you just wanna feel sad.
But the sadness you have now is not enough to trigger any bawlings.
So you think of all the sad things in life,all the unfortunate events that may happen to you...just becoz you wanna feel pitiful and drop a tear or two for yourself.

If you think this is stupid,you may be wrong too.

Coz feeling the blues and greys may not be the a bad thing.
Remember rainbow is only form after the storm.
Likewise you too need an outlet to release all the sad feelings that come from anywhere,everywhere in your life..bottling up every single minute now and then.

Am I right?
Please nod.

And so...

Today I witnessed another case of such theory on myself.

This is asking for too much for both you and I.
Sigh...You are right.

Perhaps such telepathy really doesnt exists,unlike movies and stories,no matter how in love or how close you can be with a person.

Maybe it is me being colic again.
When I am feeling tired,I always kick into a mood.
Maybe it's due to AV too.

And maybe this is just me.

I think Cancerians,females in specific,are the hardest astrological sign of the twelve to be love.
There are two types of Cancerians of both extremes,in terms of personality.
I belong to the 95%.
You know which is me.

But you cant push every single bits and pieces of the fault to me.
You know for most or everything is life,there is a cause that takes two hands to clasp.

I do feel that there is a lil tinge of difference between you now and then.
It may be minimal or really none.
It could be really me or not.

When I cant see the future that I painted,I search for the past.
But when I see the past,I dislike the present.

Why am I being so difficult?
My apologies.
But I have no reason or excuse to fend.

Tell me that I am being silly.
Tell me that I am being silly.
Tell me that I am being silly.
Tell me that I am being silly.
Tell me that I am being silly.

Scream at me to tell me that I am stupid!

Are you really the same?

Are you?
Are you?
Are you not building a small wall to fend yourself from my total invasion of every of you?
Are you not?
Are you not?
Are you not?
Are you not?

I can call myself crazy,stupid,silly and everything.
But I do not wish to delude myself and deny my own thoughts now.

I think too much,I feel too much.
I would be better after I have a good sleep.

Yes,it always been.

But....This will always return,isnt it?

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Don't leave now

Not yet

There were time we regret

And I'm sorry

SomehowI only wanted to make you proud

If I could only let you know

I'd give up everything I own

For just one more day with you

There's nothing I wouldn't doI could not let it pass me by

If I make every sacrifice

To bring me back your loveI

f only we could live twice

If only we could live twice

When you told me

I froze

It still echoes

In my soul

Please forgive me

If I didn't sayI love you

Every single day

If I could only let you know

I'd give up everything I own

For just one more day with you

There's nothing I wouldn't do

I could not let it pass me by

If I make every sacrifice

To bring me back your love

If only we could live twice

If only we could live twice

Nobody told me we'd only get one chance

I didn't know that our tide would turn so fast

Why we have to say goodbye

I don't understand

If I could only let you know

I'd give up everything I own

For just one more day with you

There's nothing I wouldn't do

I could not let it pass me by

If I make every sacrifice

To bring me back your love

If only we could live twice

I could not let it pass me by

Nothing I give to sacrifice

To bring me back your love

If only we could live twice

If only we could live twice

We'll meet in another life

If only we could live twice

________________________________

If only we could live twice....

The same kinda mistakes will be omit.

But what if...

We commit new ones?

Would you be singing If only we could live thrice and so on?

It is as good as just living once.

Please forgive me....

If I didnt say I love you every single day.

It may not be in the words.

It may not be in the actions.

It is just lost somewhere.

Like yours...

Mum & Dad are back~I woke up this morning by surprise.
Apparently I didnt hear their callings when they are back.
It was bro who opened the door.
Lol.


Yesterday was really sunny huh?
And it was (another) of my pig out day.
I really ate alot.
Lemme describe.

Woke up,eat a few(I lost count) of digestive biscuits.Not becoz I think it's for diet purposes,but really that is what it's left.

Before I left to meet dear,I ate one Meji Aloe Vera(my fav) yorgurt.

When I met him,I chomp down on the cornetto Cookies n cream ice cream.

I still ate half a almond bar after wandering ard Borders.

Before leaving Taka,I ate one mini donut at the donut shop and a bite of his big donut.

-_-

Not the end~

We went to Bukit Timah to eat PRATAS~~~
I ate two plain~

I seldom eat like that..lol.
Just coincidentally it hit my first day of AV,so I guess I just manipulate the chance.=p

Despite the happy day yesterday,I am kinda worried now.

He hasnt msg me since we parted last night.

Maybe I kinda msg too late last night that he has already sleep.
Maybe he havent woke up yet that he didnt pick up my calls.

And it better has been this way now.

=/

Please call me back huh.

Curiousity kills the cat.

I am sorry.

I dont mean it, coz I am really always only curious though I dont mean anything,I swear.

How to explain?

It is just in us,girls.

Bert is now gone to Jurong island for meeting.
Whoo~~

Now we all using web msn to interact..can be quite tiring also.

eyes closing liao...

wondering what to eat later~~~~

Happy 20th plus one mth anniversary.

Now only left Jade & me in the office.
The rest is out and I am not hoping for Bert's returnal soon.
*slaps mouth*

I am thinking very hard of how to spend this Good Friday so that it wont be too exhuasting,well spend and memorable.

No ideas so far.

Any ideas?

where the hell did i misplaced my file with all my certs.

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

while im super bored

Mia, your career personality type is INFJ

That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, you have strong communication skills and interact well with people.

Your warm personality helps create an encouraging work atmosphere that allows you to forge deep personal connections with others.

You dislike office politics and try not to get involved in the murk.

Instead, you rise above it all with your understanding nature.

You have a sense of maturity that others respect and strive to emulate.


Although you can work well alone, you are happiest balancing independent work with team interaction.

You are well organized and are a strong multi-tasker.

The reason employers and recruiters might be on the lookout for you is that only about 2-3% of the U.S. population shares the unique characteristics of your personality type.

Research shows that businesses succeed when employers create a good balance of personality types in the office.

And since only 2-3% of the U.S. population shares your type, that means employers are looking for you.
------------------------------------------------

Mia, Freud would say your strongest unconscious conflict stems from events that happened when you were a Toddler.

He would also conclude that relative to others, your personality today is moderately affected by the events of your childhood.

It appears that your biggest unconscious conflict that still afflicts you stems from what Freud defined as the anal stage of development that occurred when you were between a year and a half and three years old.

Freud would say that this conflict can manifest in your personality by giving you a tendency to be especially orderly or clean, or "retentive."

You may also harbor a strong rebellious streak.

This normally happens when parents toilet-train a child on some kind of schedule, rather than at the child's natural pace and the child naturally reacts by struggling for their autonomy and the legitimacy of their needs.

Freud defined five psychosexual developmental stages that everyone goes through on their way from infancy to adolescence.

And each of those stages is associated with adult personality traits.

At each stage, we all had to overcome certain "conflicts" or hurdles as we learned new skills and developed relationships with others..

No one gets through all five stages without having trouble with at least one of them. And it's this unresolved "trouble" that Freud encouraged people to travel back to, recognize, and overcome. ------------------------------------------
wanna puke le

This is so so so boring!
Yawns....
Time is forever so slow=<

so sleepy....

Though i know if Bert is here,it would be worse.
So I shouldnt complain too much now.

-_-
sianzzz

Yea...Bert is not here today!
What a gr8 way to kick start ur Monday.
Bye bye the blues~~~

Wonder how's things over at dear's side.

>-<
pray hard for a smooth sail week for everyone of us.

What the big F!

Why must that big grey lizard parks itself outside the refrigerator!!!
And fuck,I dont care if you are gonna die soon.
Why dont you die inside,where you should be la!

How the hell am I suppose to step in the kitchen now!

And that Jason still dare to propose me using insecticide to spray at it or sweep it away!
What the....

I am the kinda that screams upon the sight of lizard any 10-20m near me.Still do what he suggests?
Thanks for nothing.

While you may choose to laugh at this,it is really fucking not funny.
I am suppose to cook and get the chores done.
And now I cant even step in the kitchen and no one is home!!!!!

Damn it.damnit.damnit!!!!!

I HATE LIZARDS!!!!!!

This Sunday we are not meeting... I suppose so la.
Need the day to pig at home.
Not that we didnt pig out yesterday.

Yesterday,though tiring,was a good time.

We planned to go to Holland V.
But on the way,I was thrown to motion sickness suddenly.

This is one of the worst thing that can happen to you outside.
Damn...It just makes you feel weak instantly and perhaps like having fever.
We ate at the noodle place.They really know how to earn.

Anyway it was good nonetheless.
We have Ipoh chicken shreds hor fun each,throw in 7 (tiny) fried dumplings, and 2 char siew baos.(and drinks of coz)
That's alot for lunch,you must admit.

Then we walked ard H.V,before leaving to find that "bus stop".
Haha.

His new camp is somewhere near my working place.
Lol.
Though it doesnt mean that we can go back or go to work together.
He still got his soccer trainings.-_-

We arrived at Suntec at evening.
That's the extra pig out time for us.

We bought one Hawaillian Pizza from Carreffour.
One pack of small sushi rolls.(got about dunno is 15 or 18)
One pack of Sobe unsweetened soya milk.
One salsa Jack & Jill potato chips.
One bugles.(also chips.)

And we dine at the music fountain there.

This is what we ate.
Specifically...I ate my sushi rolls.(that shld be enough to make a gal full),drank the milk,had some bites of his pizza,and still eat my potato chips.
Wha ha..
This is really pigging out,man!

And that explains my tummy today.=/

Spent a lil time sitting at the Promenade.
Got one time...I jumped a lil and that startled him.Coz I felt something had bitten my foot.You should have seen his expression.
Like got alot of imaginary cold sweats on his face.
Lol.

Was so damn tired when we reach home that I didnt bath before zzz.
I got washed my face and changed outta my jeans la.

Think I dreamt of Charmaine.
^-^

Cooking porridge tonight.
Detox for the day~
Eat fruits...
If you are gonna believe my determination for detoxing and dieting....you are nuts.
Lol.


Tata

difference between Love & Like.. pls read. its true.

Copied from Friendster.


Message:
Diff between the one u like n love ..


In front of the person you like, your heartbeats faster.

But in front of the person you love, you gethappy.

In front of the person you love, winter seemslike spring.

But in front of the person you like, winter isjust beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you like,you blush.

But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.

In front of the person you like, you can't sayeverything on your mind.

But in front of the person you love, you can.

In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.

But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.

You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.

But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.

When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.

The feeling of like starts from the ear.

But the feeling of love starts from the eye.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.

But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever.



Is that it?
Then I may have gotten the answer.=)

Just finished with all the clothes chores.
Tired..tired...tired..

Went to Chomp2 to eat after work.
He got me the Adidas..arm...what kinda bag is that.Like Tote.Black.
And a water bottle.
Ha..
Um..Thanks!!!

I suggest next time if you wanna eat at Chomp 2,go to the market place nearby it.
I heard their food is gr8 too.
And today Chomp2 doesnt look any appetizing to me.

We went home(with my sore legs) to watch that 9pm drama.--You are the one.

So funny and sweet~that Meili and Simon's part.
Really makes you go ''Aww...and so sweet" but laughs at the same time.
Lol.

This is the kinda love that is really beyond your physique.
I mean Meili is kinda plain and she has a dressing style that...a fashion no-no-no.
Even her wedding gown is like borrowed from her mum!
Hahaha.

But Simon disregards all that and really loves who she is.

This kinda love deserves my full respect!

Coz afterall,you and I gotta admit that it is still hard not to use our eyes to judge.
It is only be able to done so if you have spend a long time with that person and can discover his/her beauties inside.

Anyway.....

I PASSED MY EPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought I am failing for sure!!!!

=D

Stomach kinda empty now..but kinda too late to eat le...

no wonder getting fatter and fatter.

A few hours to go..then meet dear to makan at chomp2^^.

Today we had a feast at lunch today.
After packing our own dishes,Justine went to buy fruits.
Me n Shuyi went to da pao the Taiwan street snacks--2 chicken cutlets n one pork floss eye crepe.

Full---_-

3 hours.
Hope Bert wont be back till late..but not quite possible.

Each min passed without him is a blessing.

Keeping fingers cross.

so freaking sian.
the time is so blardy slow today.
and just rec this blardy mail that takes away the day.

i hate restrictions..

read below:


Dress Code for HarbourFront employees
Since HarbourFront is the corporate office of PowerSeraya Ltd, employees are to adhere to the following dress code: -

Monday to Thursday
Gentlemen
§ Long/short sleeve business shirt
1 Business Shirt must be properly tucked in and properly buttoned;
2 Sleeves are not to be rolled up;
§ Business Pant
§ Leather Shoes complete with socks
§ Collar T-shirt

Friday
§ Jeans
§ Loafers


Ladies
§ Blouses / Jacket Suit
§ Skirt (no denim and no mini skirts) / Dress Pant
§ Business Shoes / Smart Casual Sandals with heels

Friday
§ Collar T-shirt / Smart Casual T-shirt
§ Jeans (No three-quarter nor faded jeans)
§ Loafers / Smart Casual Sandals with heels


A few other points to note:
- Pls not do wear any demin or any kind of material that is similar to demin (eg corduroy, chino) from Mon-Thur. This includes jackets or any other outer wear.

- Strictly no scandals/slippers at all times. For ladies who wear open toes shoes, pls enure that there is at least some heel and they look more business-like and do not look like slippers or scandals. This applies every day including Fri.

- Pls also do not wear business shoes on the way to work and then change to slippers in the office.-____-*

- If you need to keep warm, put on a business jacket or cardigan. For ladies, a shawl is fine but not when you are meeting a customer or any external party. Otherwise, you may wear the company wind breaker. Try not to wear any other wind breaker or causal looking outer wear in the office.

- For ladies, if your top looks a little causal (eg T-shirt like) or skimpy (eg tank top, spaghetti strip), pls put on a business jacket or cardigan.


- If you are meeting a customers, ladies pls dress more professionally (eg put on a business jacket, wear a blouse).
For the gentlemen, pls wear a tie and roll down your selves.




I seek your cooperation in adhering to this as it is important to project a professional image in our office regardless of what role you play.


All in all..what the fuck

I did not got to work today as well.
Down with fever.

Doc said it was severe throat infection that leads to fever.

Jason came here and took care of me all the way till he went for trainings.
Hehz.

Ah...fever....
Sian...

Kinda feel feverish bt I am not having a fever.-__-

Dont tell me after I zzz den fever breaks out.Bert is so not gonna believe so.
Where got so qiao?

"Visit grandma in hospital today", then tml kana fever.
>_<"

Anyway cook chicken peanut congee for lunch today.
Then deliver it under the scorching weather.
I think it tasted ok,if not just a lil too salty. =p

Jason and I had a good time at his house.
We wrestled each other on the bed,with me attempting to throw him off and him trying to suppress me.So funny.

His bro was at home too,then his gf came.
I wanted to see his gf coz i have only seen her pic.
It is the typical cute,round eyes,a bit jap style kinda mei mei off the Orchard streets.
(I hope she dont happen to read this!!Coz his laptop may contained my url for this!!!)
Not that she is not pretty.She is.

My bro offered to meet me for dinner tml.
How....rare.

That is I dun break into a fever tonight..

Finished watching the 9pm drama @ channel 8.

I like this kinda shows that speak the thoughts,the thinkings,the mentality of what people (typically Singaporeans) are today.

If you dunno the characters well,maybe I shall do a lil intro.

The eldest daughter--Hao Meiman.
She is your new age,beautiful,smart and capable career woman.
She knows how to earn,how to enjoy herself,how to pamper herself.
The independent and swinging single lady of this era.

The middle one--HAo Meili.
Despite her name,she is not really mei li.(pretty)
A lil undefined for ladies.
Tomboyish.Doesnt knows how to dress.Frank with her words.(but I dun mean it as the blunt way)
But she has a character,a heart that makes up for her physique flaw.
Always believe that her better half is out there waiting for her,despite her numerous setbacks.

The youngest--Hao Meide.
Like her elder sis,she is pretty and capable.
But I do find her the least likable.
Being pampered.She has a mouth that is unsparingly for others' feelings too.

So as you may know now,Mei man is married to her years of arch rival at work.(Raymond See)

She said something like though the one we are with now may be far from our own ideal,but once we learn to give in to each other and totally give ourselves(as in feelings wise.),we will realise that they are not too far from ideal as well.

She didnt totally said all these la,but the meanings are like this.

And Raymond said,"I may not be her ideal,but I am confident that I can give her happiness!"
---------------------
Wow!I finally received some news from my bro which is in England now.
Though it's just a very very very short email.
Am actually kinda relieved to hear from him afterall.

At least he is doing fine there...I hope so.

-----------------------

Anyway...to me...I think I am more like the Meide.
Nothing about the beautiful and capable part.
Nothing about the blunt mouth part.

Maybe more like the selfish part.
And I do see somewhat my relationship is similar to her.

Coz Meide's bf--An Zhengxi(played by Terence Chow) is a Korean.
Being your typical korean good boy,he is very very loving and obeys his mum.

Of coz someone like Meide would rather play single all her life,even though she may really likes Zhengxi,than to really give in to something that she wont do with.

And so you do see my case.

Anyway this is something that's far to think of.
So I try not to think about this.

Good night.

I am back home at the usual KO time.
The good thing about having sales visit arranged in the afternoon,say 3.30pm onwards,you can just go back straight away.

And I plotted for a leave tml.
Yes,I said Plot.
Coz I didnt apply.
Justin is just helping me with my plot.
That's why I like colleagues that i can communicate and is of the same generation.

Mainly becoz I wanted a good sleep.(exhausted from last night)
And too,I wanted to prepare some congee for that sick boy.
Hehz.

Today sales visit was a success.
I spent some time following up with that director.
From phone,he is a kinda soft spoken and nice guy.Coz he kinda desperate on saving money for his company.

I honestly didnt think I pitched much,coz what I am saying is generally the...general.Justin,being e top sales potcher,is the one who naturally bring that director to pen down his signature.
Although Jus thinks that I really improve alot...but honestly,I dun see so.
Maybe he is comparing to our last sales together.

Anyway ..anyway...Like I say..everyone is fine there..except Bert.

The moment he is there,I feel sian.

I think he doesnt likes me.
While it's ok that I dont like him too.
But I think as a manager,he really fail to earn an employee's respect for him.

Ok maybe it's becoz we are not Seraya stuff,but still we are working for you.At least till the end of this contract.We are the ones bringing in your sales.We do deserve your fair treatment.At least you dont make things so damn obvious.

Whereas for me,I dont think I have done anything wrong.
I just dunno what's the whole SOP,and damn you dun expect that I know from the beginning.

Jamie told me previously there were 2 malay gals.And they quitted becoz of his discriminatory acts.
He was against malays.
But those 2 malays are capable.They did quite alot of renewals and have a handful of clients with them.

What a fucker's act and doings.

Even if you wanna practice biasness,you must at least fork out some good reasons for it.
Say maybe we pple from Sitel are not doing well.We are not contributing..den maybe.

Ah..whatever.

For any other who never see your problem,you did a good job .After all you are still a sales person.
I just hope all your Seraya stuff that you are gonna hire next rd can hit what we are hitting for you now.

As predicted,was totally beat today.
It was already kinda late when I returned from East coast.
And was later when I called him.

It was initiated as a chat..
Then it turned unpleasant.

Coz I know I gotta bring it up sooner or later.Maybe I should have thought of a time to do that,not at least when he is sick.And he is still sick.

But I am the kinda person that cant sit back and wait for results.
I rather get things over and done with than to sit and wait.

Perhaps like how I read stories sometimes,I would tend to flip to the end of the page.

It was not good,but I wouldnt say it's bad either.

Still we have not come to a compromise state coz it is not just something that we can do within one talk.
Maybe it takes time.

Still...I wasnt sure.
At one pt I dont think I am right.
Yet I dont think I am wrong either.

We have our own way to expressing,our own way to deal.

Maybe I am the tyrant here.Always.

Maybe I dunno what I want,really.

But one thing is that you cannot be so confident of me that at the end of everything,I will always be appreciative of all you have done.

That is something everyone thinks I should.

But we are just humans,and I aint no saint.

Sometimes I just dont.
It's like even when everything is to a comfort zone,you will still wanna look for something new.

Coz it's like at one end,I am not satisfied.
Do not ask me what I am unsatisfied about.

Perhaps alot of gals would be glad,given my situation.Coz it is always about me.

Sometimes I do,but sometimes I dont.

Yes,I am a taker most of the time.
But I dun wanna push it.

It's not clear for me to type it out here,not clear enough for me to really say it.

Anyway...Let's just learn as we do.

You are sick.
Please learn to take care of urself even if i am not there.

While I dont preach what I say.While I am dependent.
I dun encourage over dependency.

gotta go.
talking to u now.^^

Change a blog skin becoz i wanted this song to be in.
Cant align the position of this player into that previous skin,and dun have enough time time to.
AND more imptly,i am an IT nut.

Case rest.

I dun really like this design.
So...dark.

Anyway just stay for the song.All you have to do is hit play.

Evanessance always sing sad songs huh?
Maybe she has such a haunting voice that it makes her songs so sad and haunting.

Her "missing" is good.

Gg to Peisi's bday party later.
Havent saw her since secondary days.
Gonna be poof tml.

Had a handful of clients that's pressing on hand.
And..too...a sales visit.

At one pt,(now I will be alone) I really do enjoy the independent feel.

Doing all the chores and feeding myself.

Feeling responsible for the house and so.

And yes,I am working and earning my dough.

When we said and all know women's mentality changes and progress with age and experiences....
I am wishing....

I can still stay right there...when I am....never thinking too much...never have to think...

This Sunday doesnt feels like Sunday.
While probably Monday i am gonna be streched.

Woke up thinking about JAson.
Could he be angry at my msges or reading my blog last night.

I think I kinda knew what I was bothering about last night.
One of another issues.

I was thinking why cant we ever really have time of our own.
Ever since his tekong days,I have been enduring and waiting for the day he finally pass out.

The first time we met after his pass out proved to be quite a disappointing ending.

The second time we met(which was yesterday) was like...totally...-_-.
Other than the fact that I was tired.

As much as I miss those lil gals,but I was at all pleased to meet them now.
Though we went to visit them for a good cause,an unavoidable cause--his grandma's 70th bday..but I was unpleased with all the timing that all these take place.

Maybe I am craving,am waiting,am thinking that I deserve,something really romantic after all the time that I had waited.

Maybe I felt that it was unfair that all the good times that are supposed to be mine was transferred to your family.(while I felt bad towards mine,but they are not here now.Not for at least another 2 weeks.)

Maybe I really better preferred those nights that you call me everyday,till it got shorter and shorter and meaningless and meaningless.
Maybe I do miss those days you called to tell me that you miss me and we dropped the tears together till it become more of you telling me your army days and guys.
Maybe I really miss those days that you sing songs randomly and I asked you to "shut up",till it now become army songs that you sing that you really need to shut them up.

Of coz..of course..of all causes,it may not just be you.
I believe that there are parts of me that you cant find me too.

Where are "we" when I need us?

I still wish you would call to tell me that you love me.
I know you do..but sometimes...when things got bleak...I choose to ignore it altogether too and then think of the stuffs i thought on my previous post.

Suddenly feel like listening to that Fan Yi Cheng "I Believe" from that Korean movie--My sassy gal.

I am suppose to zzz now.
Yea,I am very sleepy..for the whole damn day.
God knows why.

I could barely open my eyes at the start of the show.

I was suppose to be happy.
But somehow I cant.
Not that I am unhappy.But it is just that I am not happy either.
Not happy is not unhappy.

What am I thinking?

I hate it when these days come.
My words diminishing as hours pass.

There must be something on my mind.
Is it that I dunno or I pretend not to know or I just cant seem to figure it up?

...
I know...
I must be wondering what's love.

There are times when I thought I know what's love is,why am I in love and so on.
But sure there are still times I dunno everything.
Like am I in love,how does it feels,will this carry on forever?

It's like i look at Jason and wonder why is he my bf?
It has nothing to do with him or anyone.

It is just me and my quizzical self.

Dont you get this kinda feeling sometimes?
Like you are doing something for sometime...den suddenly you wonder why are you doing it.Do you know wat you are doing etc.

Oh..whatever it is..

I am really tired.
My eyes screaming for shut down.

Good night.

And you are still my boo.

My parents left for China liao.
Now I am left with my lil brother.
Cross fingers that we will not have any quarrels during this 2 weeks.

The house feels kinda empty now,and it will feels more so from tml onwards.

Oh well...Just make good use of this 14 days to live like an independent lady.

Charge!!!!!

This is the best Friday so far.
Bert is out for course and we basically play games all day,with minimal work done.
If only every Friday is lidat.Or rather this is the way that how friday SHOULD be.
Lol.

Anyway...today is gr8.

Coz basically I hate my personal stuff to affect on how I am on work/studies.
Though it's not a very big deal anyway.

I wont talk about it nor voice my views or anything else.Coz this shouldnt be the way EVERYTIME.
I dun wanna rely on any other medium or let you rely on them to know what to do next.

It is always like this and I am gonna let this die.It should be "it WAS always like that" from now on.

Anyway...gotta join them in the mystery playing liao.

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Ah...Thursday.
Doing it now at the office.
Bert at the other side,hope he will never come back till im done at least.
hehz.

How come Jason hasnt contacted me eversince last night.

We are gg out tonight,right??

Hmm...

Anyway..hope today passes fast n good.

Pray pray.
>-<"

My heart almost dropped to the pits when Jade said this at 2.30pm.

"Chuanling,I need to talk to you in 15 mins time."

I just hate this sentence!

Dont you find it very scary.

I dont remember doing anything wrong.Like Jason said,I didnt do anything wrong.I just did something unknowingly.

And I know that she is gonna speak to me abt something.
Havign enough of this.."I need to talk to you" from my previous working experiences..(trust me,I have more than ample of that "i need to talk to you")
I prepared myself for the worst scenario that my mind can bring me to.

Fortunately...Jade didnt reprimand me or bring me to anywhere close to what I've prepared.(thank god!!!!)
She merely asked what happened.(she wasnt ard when Bert 'screwed' me yest)
and told me not to take to heart.

coz obviously Bert is more protective for his own staff,and if there is anything in doubt,I should ask Justin,herself or Bert.(forget abt asking bert,ok!)

So I conclude this whole thing with a "PHEW~~~~ -.-"

Jade is pretty,young,sexy,with a good figure.She do looks a lil fierce but really,she is not.
Sometimes she is a lil playful n childish as well.
It is just her 'fierce' looks that plays a facade.But sometimes,to me,when she is playing...she doesnt really look like someone that you can completely rest ur guard n play with.Just becoz she looks fierce.

But hey..she is a babe!trust me!
A babe with a gorgeous figure?
Super babe!!!

Shuyi's bf came to pick her out after wk today.
While it is always so "AWE-son" n envious to see someone submerging to their own world,how come u dun really feel that tiny sweetness that others are feeling when it comes to ur turn?

U get what I mean?
It is like..u dun even realise that u are in ur own world already.

Haha.

Mum and dad is flying on Friday liao.

Pray for a safe journey,of coz.
I love my mummy n daddy~~~

To be honest,it is kinda difficult for me to get over a bad incident.Although it is a must.
I am just not quite the person that can easily embrace myself to move on.
So my mood this morning is kinda dull.=(

Haiz.
*slaps myself*

Grip on tighter,gal!!!

I think I have told alot of pple liao..basically those who have been in contact with me today.

Im quite unlucky today lo.

Stupid Bert.

I dunno what's up with those working adults.Particularly those who have generation gaps with u lo.
Or izzit that I dun have fate with some of those working pple.

I blardy hell cant stand that kinda idiotic notion that they have on us--new birds to the market.
That is to think that we actually know EVERYTHING beforehand,despite we are doing it for the first time or inexperience!

Today...it's really that blardly first time I am doing the contract lo.
And that stupid big fish also blardly stupid.Wants me to email her and tell her step by step on what she needs to do!
Cant she just endorse on everything and fax it back to me!

Then I of coz email her la.I really have no blardy idea what's with the what Banker's Guarantee form ok!What's with the security deposit.
These are the stuff that I dun think it can be just simply implanted to ur brain without a few rds of experimenting with it.Let alone this is my virgin touch with all these!

So I am being called to his desk,which is like just behind the table beside's me.(justin's seat) and he questioned me with those kinda questions that makes u wanna cry on the spot.

I really blardy buay siong with the fact that he keeps emphasizing that this is COMMON SENSE!
Fuck!
What is common sense!
Ok..maybe till that minimal extend it is.
But hello!!
With a green horn that have no idea what to do next,noone to guide her and really plainly listening to her colleagues' advice...
anyway...I dun think it is purely based on ur common sense!

Coz this is like ..u do already den u know.Even if I am wrong,u just have to tell me...and not blardly shit on me n tell me this is common sense!

Coz it is not what!How should i know that the document is for internal approval and need not be send to the customer to let her know as well!
Ok now that I know..but u blardy do not have to rub it so rough just now!

On my side,I admit that it is also my fault for forever not being too vigilant!
I know I shld have learn and now God is reminding me!

I am sorry and I promised that I would mark this on my forehead now.
This side of my fault,I admit.

And I also admit that actually Bert really aint too harsh.
It is just at that pt of time,it is kinda scary and tough to bite on.
Like a student being call up to the desk and the teacher keeps scolding there infront of the other students.

BUT one thing I dun think he deserves our or MY respect is that he is biased against his own Seraya staff.

While Jen and Shuyi are his seraya staff,he always laugh laugh n never show any furstrations on them.
(although jun n shuyi are our good friends there as well)
But for Sitel stuff like..me(esp),marc,justin,mingli and sometimes even Jade herself,he practices less tolerance and more impatience!

What is that lo!
We are working for lesser pay(than seraya staff of coz) and still clinche deals for u..what's the meaning of such biasness lo!

Argh!!!!!!!!

Anyway...just like today be a lesson for me.
Of coz I do learn something la but this is the kinda lesson that u dun really accept with full willingness lo.
It depends on who is the person teaching u,and his attitude ma.

Blardy shit!

One more time.

FUCK IT,man!

It's a lazy Monday morn.
'Bert' aint ard for the morning,and hope it stays so for the entire day at least.

Jade and March went to meet client.

Shuyi is on leave today n tml.
Went diving...shiok~

Have no idea where did that quackie--Jen,went.

ZzZzZz.

That "big fish"'s case is abt to close.Now left with all the signing of contracts and stuff.
Judging by the rate she responds and takes the time to close the deal,I think this will take some time.
-_-

Just hope can get the nonsense done and over with.

ok..bert is back.
-_______________________-*

I know this is a bad skin.
I know it can hardly be read.
The colour and font size

Sorry.

Make do with it for a lil while,k?

Was editing this blog's code.

Wanna puke.

Aint no IT expert,sadly.

My tagboard's gone!!

Cant find the link.

So bear with it for a lil while..till I am free to go thru the htmls again. =p
(unlikely)

Anyway ya here just for reading yea??

hehe..

This is a lonely Sunday Morning.
Maybe I shld blast some music now.
Gimme a min...

Playing Pink--Just like a pill.
Dunno it's Power 98 or Perfect 10.

Jason booked in last night.
I thought we could have dinner together but he told me he cant last min.
Of coz I turned mute.
I wasnt angry but maybe more upset.
I missed those days when time isnt a factor that's restricting us.


(ok..it's Perfect 10)
Hey..Rod Thomas' new song is gr8.
I think his voice is truely wicked & unique.
Though I am not a fan of him la.

Anyway...I realised that white rose(or maybe any roses) kinda smell like red wine.

Hanging it down to dry now.

Haiz..When I think of Monday and work,I feel sick.

Browsing blogskins now..want to change this blardy skin.

Will take some time.

Haiz..
I miss him....=/

Though it is only 4 more days.
But somehow...no matter how..time will never be as long as before.

Bro had left for England.
Actually since a very long time, I wasnt too close with him.
Esp when I've grown up,I find it hard to speak with him.
Carrying a decent conversation is kinda awkard.
I dunno why.
Yes...I do some kinda abominate him for being so 'useless' most of the time.
I really wish that he is some elder brother that I can look up to,be proud of and really talk with.

I told pple that I aint very close with my elder bro.
And I am envious of Vonny having such a close relationships with her brothers,esp the elder one.
Envious of Wengkin is such a rare,doting and in fact over zealous doting kinda brother.
Lol.

Come to think of it..honestly speaking..my brother hasnt been too nasty to me.
I will always remember that he once bought me a pair of Adidas sports shoes costing $60 odd with his pay.
That was when I was 15.
I was really happy then.Even till poly year 1,I was still wearing that shoes till I have decided it is really boyish and cost my toes pain.

And I know that I always wanted to buy him a wallet for his bday.
But till now,I havent done so.
Coz sometimes I just dun think he really deserves my gift.
Sad to say that,but this is true.

But I thought...at least I did loan him SDG$300.I know it is really not alot,esp when it is converted to pounds.
But really,I havent intend him to return me at all.
I am sure I would have lend more if I have the capacity.

Right now...I just pray and wish that he will finally do well over there.
Of coz i wanted him to return back.
But I only want him to return with pride and success.
It wouldnt be easy for him.

I know that my parents,despite the numerous scoldings and arguements with him over this issue alone,must have felt sad inside.
My parents aint the cold type.They just dont bring their real thoughts and shy to pronounce them on face.

So whatever it is....I just pray that everything would be alright.
Though it is really harder to do than say.

Suddenly I realise how lonely the house would be after my parents fly to China,which is only like next week.
Only my bro & me.
I promised myself that I must be a good disciplinarian during this 2 weeks.
I gotta spend the time really,really bonding with my brother.

I have commit the mistake of not doing so with my elder brother and now is kinda too shy to do so.
We have kinda grew distant from each other,though sometimes we still talk a lil,him giving sweets to me etc.

Hope I will never be too late to still really,have a good bond with my elder one , and then now my lil brother.

God...I am never late,am I?

Of coz matters always take two hands to clasp.
My hand is out there...now.
=)

What a nice surprise after a hard day of work.~_~

Today's work is a lil stressful.
It's sales afterall...We are told to close as many accounts(those that we are close to closing) as we can by today.Coz I think today gotta submit a report.
And I can tell this is just the very beginning.
By April or May..this stress would be mounting and June is war time.
Luckily by June,I am not there at the war zone liao.
*heng*-_-

I have this very big 'Fish' who approached me at first.(those who automatically bite the bait..)
After a long time of following up(that's my job)..doing comparison charts and quotations,she finally answered to me.

I am not the eventual one doing all the sales pitch coz this fish right here is really the kinda that ask to the slightest details of e whole operation of this energy market.
In the end 'Bert' is the one finally handling her.
I can virtually see smoke coming outta his head when he handled her.

I think it's close...though contract is not sign yet and there may be still last min movement..but after so much hard work...pls la...come on board!

Dear told me that his fren would be collecting his(jason) hp from me coz he needs it inside camp for some photo taking.

So I waited outside Subway after work,preparing to give dear a call so that I know who is his fren.

Suddenly someone walked v fast past me(without me even noticing) and grabbed me by the waist from behind.Of coz I jumped a lil.

I was almost speechless when I saw it's him.

Hehz.
And there..he handed me my white rose.

Actually I never really wanted any flowers...coz I think their life time is far too short.
But really..I appreciate that single stalk of white rose.

It is things like these in life that I am looking out for.

I love u,dear.

Sometimes my job can be describe with such analogy.
There are 5 electricity retailers in the market,each offering electricity in a special,attractive package.

Currently on Seraya Cruise(my company) are me n my colleagues doing all the fishing.
Of coz there are other pple,but those are doing other stuffs..whatever fishing involved.
We are not too concern about the other "ships" but this one other cruise. --Sembcorp.

Competition amg us is very fierce and intense.

So every day,fishers like us would throw our bait into the vast big ocean.
That is to mean making phone calls to company,hoping to fax quotations over.
2nd step is hoping that they will be interested enough to taste ur bait.
Aka willing to fax bills over and let you do comparison chart.

Usually this step would take some time coz those "fishes" would hardly fax their bills over on time.Sometimes need to call and remind for weeks,sometimes they would just decide not to fax over.
So you have to be careful with the strength of ur line.
Dun pull it too hard or the line will snap and a potential fish will slip back to the ocean.

But sometimes it is just kinda impatient,coz u cant sit back forever and waiting for them to fax.Which is hardly the case.So soft reminders are needed.

Sometimes u get mellow fishes,which are nice to u (on the phone)la.
Sometimes u get v nasty fishes,which is one of that I mentioned a few entries ago.
Sometimes u get blur fishes but those are often the greedy ones as well.
They couldnt see for the long term basis,thinking saving $100 plus to 200 per mth is quite lil.
But they fail to think that by a year,they are actually saving a mth of what they are paying right now.

So these are the norms.

SOMETIMES..these are the times that u r idiot to let go,and must really hold on to ur line and pull agressively.

I mean:
There are fishes that automatically bite ur bait.
Note that these are actually BIG FISHES.
But usually big fishes are not stupid fishes.
They are tasting other fishers' baits as well.

I have got a few of such big fishes.
And today I witnessed one.
I passed on my hook to my team manager--Jade,who got more experience,talking power and strength.

Of coz our competitor is SembCorp.
Though our fish is a big one,but she is still a layman in this industry.
We are very agressive when it comes to S.Corp,it's an insult to Seraya if we lose to them.
And evil S.Corp pollutes the fish's brains and that fish throws back everything that she heard to Jade.

It is rather exciting to see the tug war.
I believe once S.Corp heard our quotation would risk herself to slash even lower,which is insane and of no gain to S.Corp herself.

Of coz I do want to win back this fish!
If the fish is won,its my first deal and a big deal!

*pray pray*
>_<*
crossing every heart muscles and pray hard

Shopping at Watsons is one of the most satisfying shopping spree for me.
Today after work,my urge for some lil shopping attacked me.

So I go ard the shops at Harbour Front but couldnt find a piece of garment that really fits the bill.
I know I shouldnt be shopping judging by my current state of finance.
But sometimes this kinda attack is quite strong and it controls ur mind without u even realising that u are doing harm to urself(literally saying).
Hehz.

So I found Watsons.
I swore that I started off with a very innocent thought of just buying a facial cleanser,which is something I need.
Then I saw this Nivea pearl shimmer lip balm.
I thought why not..better than lip gloss that refuse to stick for long and still provide care for the lips.
Furthermore Im working in an air-conditioned place.You want nice kissable lips,so I need care.

Then I remembered that i WANTED some eye lash curler.
I never had one and thought perhaps I can try.
Coz whenever I put on mascara(which is v seldom),the lashes wont curl up evenly.
My left eye lashes just wont curl like my right.
Unlike my sista,I dun have that kinda lashes that curls without mascara.

But sadly,I dun find any.And the sales gal told me next week.
Ok fine...I move on to concealor which is a MUST for panda grps.(I am a avid member of the Panda club)
I dunno when my current one is gonna be using up,but I know I have been using it for some months already and it is not working fine.Just look at how pandish I am,you will noe.

Den I saw some facial pdts.
I dump my first facial and try the OLAY one.
And too got a ..ern...I think it's OLAY day cream.

And voila...I saw Blorie make up remover which comes with a free eye lash curler.
Just what I need both.
Luck couldnt be better.

And ka ching ka ching ka ching...
-_-~

I know I am in for some reprimanding from Jason sometime later when he reads this.
But I know too that he would be SMILING when he reads this.
Hehe.=D
Coz he knows this is me,his truely Mich~^^